This blog is to let you know that I'm still around. Doing a little better too. Not fine but improving. But still hopelessly devoted to Leo. I'm sorry for having some of you so concerned all the time. Don't worry, I'm sure he's not out to hurt me. Yes, maybe we are failing but then so are many people in this world and it's not necessarily anybody's fault.

Somebody mentioned Leo reading this and asked if that didn't concern me. Yes, maybe he is reading but there is nothing on this blog that he hasn't heard from me in fascinating detail. Lol. I suppose one of the best things about him is that I can tell him everything and there will not be any backlash. He may not always have an answer but he's there to listen. It would be much easier to leave if he was an asshole. But he isn't. He's a good man and that makes it so easy to completely fall for him and so hard to leave behind what I will always hope could turn out to be amazingly satisfying. And that includes but is not limited to the bedroom. Lol. I can't believe I am telling you all this...

But it's like the only thing on my mind and almost easy to talk about when I don't know who's reading. It's fascinating how I'm barely able to say a word about this man when asked by friends yet I share a good part here on a daily basis for everyone to read. VWB = very weird behaviour (on my part). I guess the internet leads us to reveal a big part of our thoughts and it doesn't seem to matter that it's the same audience we're talking to (my real life friends are reading here), just a different way of communicating with them. A less intruding, less personal way of revealing who you are. The best part is that you do not have to read between the lines like you would if your friend and listener was sitting across the table. You don't know what they think as they are reading this sitting in front of their respective screens. I really like the distance. Especially when the issue at hand is so complicated.

I am home early today. Wednesday is my short day with only one lecture. It's nice to be able to relax and not having to study until 9 pm. I'm pretty tired. The new schedule is taking its toll. But it's what I wanted and I am not planning to give up on my studies when I am just starting to like them. I did a presentation on Monday (on direct and parliamentary democracy) and received some excellent feedback from my professor and a few fellow students. I was almost proud and for a few hours I was able to feel really good and for once the reason wasn't Leo but my own damned self. Hehe

Signing off for the night. Goodbye.